I grew up on Long Island in a town called Mastic Beach. I had a pretty great childhood filled with beach days, baseball, Manhunt, Sega, karate, sleepovers, and lots of pizza. God was an occasional part of my life too. Every once in a while we would go to the church up the road on Sundays. But most of my church experience came from religion classes that I had to go to when I was in elementary school. If I’m honest, I didn’t love those classes, but they seemed to be important to my mom and graduating from them got me a huge party.
If you were to ask me back then what God was like I would have told you that He probably looks like Gandalf the wizard and operates like Santa Claus. I imagined Him as an old man in the sky with a huge wizard beard looking down and judging my every decision and thought. He was a list-making score-keeper, giving me points when I did good and taking them away when I was bad. But unlike Santa there were no gifts at the end of the year…
When I was a freshman in high school I did something that I regretted deeply, something that I assumed would put me on God’s bad side forever. If he really was making a list and checking it twice, I assumed my name was sharpied on the naughty side.
Just a few months after making that regretful decision, I went to Missouri to visit family and was invited to church. I really didn’t want to go but reluctantly said yes. And I’m so glad I did. Because it was at this church, a place that was unlike any church I had ever been to before, that I learned God was not the judgmental wizard that I thought He was. I learned that God is everything Jesus is: He is personal, loving, forgiving, gracious, and He is actually for me. That’s when I began to trust in and follow Him. And after 15 years I can honestly say that following Jesus makes your life better, and makes you better at life.